Goodbye Judy

In our apartment you were nine steps away from me. Inside my heart you were every ninth beat, preserving me.

Two years have passed since our paths collided. It was not like the average explosion people feel when first meeting; it was much more significant... Like two young stars caught in the same violent force field of a life, gradually coming closer and closer to one another, filling each other's crevasses and smoothing over hard times, to produce one beautiful planet of friendship. I guess I can't speak for you but from what I recall, we had great revolutions.

I have enjoyed all of our memories from:
Late night/early morning talks To Riverside blues, TO running into HIM while we were not composed, TO that cute photo shoot of you, TO those heart felt revelations about life (which were my favorite), TO desserts and music, TO taking in the ocean breeze, TO seeing that B-Boy battle and much much more! You are a great roommate and a phenomenal person. I am so happy that we witnessed each other grow. I really hope we stay in touch when we go our separate ways. You are amazing. Thank you. 

Smile: A New Beginning

I was never good at being alone. And of course, since humans are creatures of habit, I ran away from my deepest connections in hopes to preserve my own existence. It was reckless, but the wind was at my back. It seemed to be my only chance to take flight....

I collapsed at the edge of the world. My fragile, folded wings were burned by the merciless sun in the pure, blue sky. There was nothing but a desert of failure around me. Weary, I fell in and out of restless sleep.

I had traveled as far as I could from the dangerous rays of loneliness but it was no use, it still made its home in my heart, where I kept my dearest comrade in a dark room, while I danced with sadness alone.

I don't remember how much time I spent at the edge of my world, but I can recall one life changing detail. He said:

 "Tell me now, do you want to live your

life as a pessimist or an optimist? Life was started for you

but it is up to you to live it, love it and finish it. 

Don't keep people out, AND Embrace your existence."

I took flight as a new person that day and headed towards my new life with passion and intelligence. His sweetest words swirled through my wings on my journey home:

"It's okay to smile for yourself. Even if you can't let go of the past,

I will still be there to meet you tomorrow."

Birth of a volcano: A short story

Long ago during Earth's crowning,
While land migrated and seas stirred with madness,
She made her home in silence.

Years passed.

Dull elevation; a blank mound.

Living had no design.

She gave nothing to this world.

Then one day, with breath of life

Conceived an orchid at her bosom.

Repaired.

Oceans calmed; lands bashful,

Witnessed the stain of mortality.

Nursed beneath the sultry broth;

The fragile youth swayed through timid whispers.

Sheltered from the Western winds and coddled by 

Gentle elegance,

Growth was inevitable.

As life maintained, so did she.  

Fascination gave rise to massive strength,

Parenting gave thick uprising and

Purpose evolved vigor majesty.

Soon, seasons changed. 

Death possessed existence.

Inside; silent no longer.

Reborn by darkness,

Twisted, turbulent, fury surfaced.

Molten damage took hold.

Nothing could survive her wrath.

With this as her commencement,

New Form:

A maternal gift to Earth. 

Crossroad

Do you see it? Tell me, will you see it? It's sucking me in. I want to go, but not without you. No, don't close your eyes! Don't be afraid to feel yourself for the first time. Give me your hand. Here, jump onto this train. The tracks are bumpy but the ride is safe. It is going to take us to where wisdom resides. Please! I can't get off! Reach out to me like I am to you. Come now, how much longer do you plan on waiting? What are you waiting for? I can't outrun time, can you? I don't want to let you go, but the distance between us is growing larger and larger and I can't wait here without exhausting my innocence. Tell me what you need! It isn't me, is it. If it were, then you would be right by my side. Hurry, give me your answer, I can't hold the train up much longer. My fruit is ripe, don't let me spoil it. If you can see it, then we can rebuild it. It is up to you now.